Will be going to my home town tomorrow.
A 40 hours journey by train, yes, two trains, from here to Kolkata and from there to Durgapur.
Happy I am, isn't it?
At least should be happy. That's the rule.
Meeting relatives , my home, my mother my brother and his family, I should be happy.
But why am I having a lot of tension?
I have this every time I am going to my home town, twice a year that is.
Time takes away so many things from us, specially the warmth of relations. The somewhat cold relation between my brother's family and me. Sometimes I feel they don't want me to come there , meet my mother. Afraid? Of what? Are they afraid of the little money my mother gives me or my children?
Same can be said about my sasural. With mother-in-law and father-in-law no more , the big house is taken care of by one of my sister-in-laws. Do they consider us a threat? But isn't it our home ? But still they behave far better than my own family. They prepare for our coming, they cook delicious foods, we laugh , we enjoy.
But a different picture in my mother's home. But still I will not stop going. Its my right as a daughter of the house. No one can stop me from meeting my mother even though my mother don't care anymore of my visit, I know.
How things changed after the death of my father!
How things changed after my mother has started using the walking stick!
A 40 hours journey by train, yes, two trains, from here to Kolkata and from there to Durgapur.
Happy I am, isn't it?
At least should be happy. That's the rule.
Meeting relatives , my home, my mother my brother and his family, I should be happy.
But why am I having a lot of tension?
I have this every time I am going to my home town, twice a year that is.
Time takes away so many things from us, specially the warmth of relations. The somewhat cold relation between my brother's family and me. Sometimes I feel they don't want me to come there , meet my mother. Afraid? Of what? Are they afraid of the little money my mother gives me or my children?
Same can be said about my sasural. With mother-in-law and father-in-law no more , the big house is taken care of by one of my sister-in-laws. Do they consider us a threat? But isn't it our home ? But still they behave far better than my own family. They prepare for our coming, they cook delicious foods, we laugh , we enjoy.
But a different picture in my mother's home. But still I will not stop going. Its my right as a daughter of the house. No one can stop me from meeting my mother even though my mother don't care anymore of my visit, I know.
How things changed after the death of my father!
How things changed after my mother has started using the walking stick!
This is really painful.. but don't be hopeless.
ReplyDeletePessimistic as always.
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