"What have you achieved in your life? Anything? You are nothing but a failure."
As if the words were still echoing in the air. Rini sat at the corner of her room,a cup of tea in her hand, already cold, the words still ringing in her mind. Innumerable times she has heard them, they have but little impact on her anymore. But still she thinks sometimes ,are the words right! She has done nothing in this life! Achieved nothing!
She is not the one who listens mutely though. But answers at times.
"My greatest achievement is staying with you this long," she lashes out, " have maintained the family which could have been broken long back." She continues," I don't earn money but I have earned the family with my patience and hard work, may be not always physically but mentally."
Am I right in thinking so? Rini thought. Have I burnt myself out completely through this journey of mine, adjusting myself constantly, fighting crazily at times. Did the dreams I had once all fade away , turned into ashes in this fire?
Or are they just excuses? As some say, you haven't tried enough, you gave up too early, you are lazy ,used to an easy life. Easy life? Looks like. But we all have our struggles. Looks simply from that side of the river, Rini says in defending herself. But some even struggle more, they say, you get everything, you complain more. Rini laughs silently. Hardly can she say everything.
Its eleven in the morning. Rini gets up hurriedly. Need to prepare lunch, special for the girl. If only some day the girl becomes one she always wanted to be ,independent ,happy, upright, she will get her payment from life, her achievement. Till then she will not stop hoping.
But now she must run into the kitchen.
As if the words were still echoing in the air. Rini sat at the corner of her room,a cup of tea in her hand, already cold, the words still ringing in her mind. Innumerable times she has heard them, they have but little impact on her anymore. But still she thinks sometimes ,are the words right! She has done nothing in this life! Achieved nothing!
She is not the one who listens mutely though. But answers at times.
"My greatest achievement is staying with you this long," she lashes out, " have maintained the family which could have been broken long back." She continues," I don't earn money but I have earned the family with my patience and hard work, may be not always physically but mentally."
Am I right in thinking so? Rini thought. Have I burnt myself out completely through this journey of mine, adjusting myself constantly, fighting crazily at times. Did the dreams I had once all fade away , turned into ashes in this fire?
Or are they just excuses? As some say, you haven't tried enough, you gave up too early, you are lazy ,used to an easy life. Easy life? Looks like. But we all have our struggles. Looks simply from that side of the river, Rini says in defending herself. But some even struggle more, they say, you get everything, you complain more. Rini laughs silently. Hardly can she say everything.
Its eleven in the morning. Rini gets up hurriedly. Need to prepare lunch, special for the girl. If only some day the girl becomes one she always wanted to be ,independent ,happy, upright, she will get her payment from life, her achievement. Till then she will not stop hoping.
But now she must run into the kitchen.
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